"I" is for "I".

Here we are again, happy as can be, tra la la la la! I think insanity is setting in. The A-Z challenge is really hard. Today it is “I”.

I pondered this and pondered it yesterday and my mind was a total blank. Then just when I was about to give up I could hear my Dad calling out to my Mum...... “I”.

Her name was Iris but much of the time he called her “I”.

Now I feel guilty that I didn't immediately think of her but in my defence I didn’t call her I or Iris I called her Mum.

It is coming up very shortly to 3 years since we lost my Mum. It seems like much, much longer. I have so much guilt over my feelings.

She was a good Mum. We had our ups and downs through my teenage years like many do but we always got along. Many of you will know her story and that she had Alzheimers disease. It is the hardest thing that I have dealt with in my life. I still find it hard to the point where I can't talk about it.

Instead I shall post a photo so that you can see what “I” looks like.

This was taken on her last birthday and although it is not the best of photos I cherish it because it is the last one ever taken of the 4 of us.  

Jilly.